Those who know me, know that I am a fairly private person. I do not share my inner essence with very many people – sometimes not even with those closest to me. As a result, this post is going to be quite the stretch. Please, just bear with me here.
I had the opportunity recently to receive a numerology reading and personalized energy mandala from Keith Knudson at http://www.energymandala.com . The mandala is stunningly gorgeous. And the numerology report is very detailed and the most accurate reading I’ve ever had done. So accurate, in fact, that it’s almost erie.
For the past few years, I have been going through quite a transformative period in my life. Honestly – I’ve been searching for some direction. Funny thing is – I *knew* the direction. Always have known the direction. The part that escapes me is letting go enough to believe in myself.
It’s a case, really, of knowing ones true power and being afraid it will be misused. Not by the one who holds the power. No, because I am not that kind of a person – but by those who would seek to steal the power away. It scares me not for my own sake, but for that of my family. Until now, it is a risk I was unwilling to take.
But after seeking deep within myself, I have come to understand that the worst risk, the highest risk, is in not sharing and not using that power to begin with. Keith’s report is the sign I asked for.
This period – from today forward – marks the beginning of what I hope will be a long, fruitful and joyous journey for myself and for all who would follow in my footsteps, now and ever more.
Two key points in the reading are my gift of intuition and insight and the ability to see both the details of a plan as well as how it should unfold. I’ve known these for a long time, just have never really been aware of how best to use them to my purpose. A purpose which lies in two other key points of the reading – the gifts of healing and teaching.
A couple of weeks ago, I wrote an entry in my personal journal about being a teacher. Interesting that Keith’s report should mention this so pointedly and accurately – especially without my sharing anything concerning my thoughts on the idea with him. This is another sign I asked for.
And probably the reason I am finally willing to proceed in the direction I have long since known was my “destiny,” my purpose. Not really that I have been UNwilling in the past. More like being too much of a people-pleaser. And that, I suppose, is the peacemaker in me. Always wanting to keep the peace. Never to make any waves.
Well, in order to live my true essence, I will have to make waves.
Be prepared to get wet! 
